Happy Independence Day to all of my fellow Americans! Let’s celebrate this wonderful holiday with some fireworks!!
And for those of you reading this who aren’t here in the US of A, doesn’t mean you can’t celebrate something too… So, MORE FIREWORKS!!
We’ve got some really dry conditions around here today, so virtual fireworks are all I can do. I can’t even do sparklers for fear of starting the fire that will destroy my town… Because it probably would be MY sparkler to do it. I suppose we could do a few of those Snakes for the kidlets and maybe some of those little snapper things that you throw on the ground and go *POP*, but their interest in that would last 2 seconds before they decided to worry more about the sidewalk chalk. And then slaying dragons. And then climbing trees.
Today is the day I post for the Insecure Writer’s Support Group (IWSG), as is every first Wednesday of the month. The IWSG was created by Alex J. Cavanaugh and is about supporting your fellow writers and getting any insecurities about your writing out there so others can support you too.
This month my insecurities lie in finishing The Gifted and getting the crits on my other WIP. It seems strange that I finished my NaNo novel before I finished The Gifted. I started on it over a year ago, and still I’m two weeks (at least) away from finishing the first draft. So much has kept me away from it, and all of it complete and utter BS. I had this to do or I had that to do. Yeah, right.
The truth of the matter is, I just didn’t do it. I didn’t give myself permission to sit down and finish the thing because I’ve been too freaking scared. Scared of what would happen once it’s done. Scared of what the results would be when its done (as in, it would suck big time and I’d realize I was an idiot for trying in the first place). Scared of the major edits that would have to be done to whip the thing into shape and make it at least a passable example of writing.
I’m not quite sure what made it easier for me to get the NaNo novel finished before The Gifted. Sure, NaNoWriMo helped me get 50,000 words of it written in just a month, but even after that, there were times when I would look at it and know the edits on it were going to be worse than The Gifted. And yet, it’s my NaNo book that is going through crits right now.
The closer I get to finishing The Gifted, the more my hands shake. The more my heart rate speeds up and leaves me gasping for air, on the verge of hyperventilating. I guess, it’s because The Gifted is the book that started this whole adventure. It’s because once this first book is done -this book that made me realize I AM a writer- once it’s finished, it’s finished. The beginning will have been left behind. It’s a scary prospect… So, I guess it’s a good idea I planned it as the first in a four book series… Because then I can still look back and see where I started.
Where are you on your writing journey? Any insecurities? Tell me in the comments and I’ll cheer you on!
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