SHH!! Don’t tell anyone!!
It’s true though. My husband doesn’t even realize it, but that’s because he remembers me from high school when I knew everyone and had nothing to fear. Everyone already had an opinion of me, and I was just fine with that.
Now, as a writer, I find myself wondering, how do I connect with the lovely people on Twitter? I have not yet gotten into Google Plus, but as soon as I get the email saying I can come on in, I’ll be figuring out what Chuck Wendig is talking about when he says Circle Jerks… I am very curious to know.
But will I have the same problem on Google Plus as I do on Twitter? I love getting on Twitter and seeing all the great conversations of my fellow writers. I love seeing people connect… But I worry about connecting myself. I did all right for a while, when I first started on Twitter… And then that cold hard fear of rejection burst out of it’s hiding spot in my subconscious and I froze.
You see, I’ve been following Kristen Lamb’s blog for a while, and she talks about Brand a lot. What is your writer brand? Well, I certainly don’t want my brand to be “Idiot Writer Who Tries Too Hard.”
That’s where shyness comes from though. It’s a fear of how others will perceive you, so you keep quiet… And the world passes you by without much notice. I don’t want that either.
So, what do I do? Do I allow myself the shyness and let the world pass me by? Or do I get out there and let people see me for me, whatever that may lead to?
I’m a nice person. I usually see the silver lining in any bad situation and try to convince others it’s there. I like to think of myself as a happy-go-lucky kind of gal. Laid back.
But then I get onto the social networking sites and I suddenly have absolutely nothing to say. In life, I’m a pretty talkative person. On the computer, I can type up 1000 words of my WIP in just a couple of hours if I put my mind to it. On Twitter or Facebook? I freeze.
I need to get over it. I’ve had conversations with people on Twitter through #pubwrite. The peolple I talked to followed me and I followed back. It’s a wonderful thing, Twitter. I need to get out of this shy zone I’ve painted myself into though and stop being a lurker…. I mean… I don’t go looking through people’s windows in real life, so why am I lurking in a digital sense? It’s kinda unnerving now that I think about it…
So, I’ve set myself a goal. Every day, when I log on to my TweetDeck and I see something interesting, I won’t just RT it, I’ll comment on it. I’ll say something about it. I’ll also stop watching converstations as they happen. I will jump in if I find one I like and speak up. I will not allow myself to fall prey to the fear of rejection anymore…
Because if I don’t talk at all, I certainly will be rejected.