As some of you know, this is not my first attempt to write a book. I’ve told you how, in the past, I sat down to write and a week later walked away.
I couldn’t really tell you why I walked away I gave up because I didn’t think my writing was good enough: What I wrote lacked that polished feel all books I’ve read have. I wasn’t confident enough in my abilities to have the patience to sit down and just write. That’s the only reason I walked away Honestly, I walked away because it was too hard, and I wasn’t willing to commit my time to it. I didn’t want to sit through months of writing just to go back and spend another couple of months editing, followed by another month or so of editing. So far, with this WIP, I haven’t given up and I accept that I will be sitting at my computer for months making this book what it deserves to be.
I am proud to say I have officially crossed the 30,000 words mark!! (YAY!) A year ago, I would never have reached this point. Now that I have, I refuse to give up.
I’ve never been so determined to do anything in my life, and, now that I’m about a third of the way through, I’m even more determined to finish it. That is a huge WIN for me! Go back a year in time and ask Hubs what my writing was like. He would tell you “She has the ideas, but she only writes a chapter before quitting.” Ask him about my writing today and he’ll say “I have a wife? Hell, I thought the thing in front of the computer was a statue!”
Okay, so the statue thing is a bit of an exaggeration, but it’s probably close to the truth.
You see, I’m obsessed with this story. I get so excited about certain scenes or plot points or sub-plots I quite literally SQUEEE!! and do an awkward little happy dance. It’s not pretty, but I don’t care! To still be this excited this far into the project is a huge deal for me, and I cannot stop smiling about it! I realize that soon enough I’m going to hit the point Lilith Saintcrow calls “The Slog” where all I want to do is print out a copy of my WIP just so I can burn it as a sacrifice to the SucksAss Gods, begging them to have mercy on me. That’s a sacred mountain I’ll climb when I come to it though.
For now, I’m on the rolling hills of creativity and enjoying the challenging climbs up the difficult scenes as much as the rolling easily down the scenes that basically write themselves. Wish me luck on the crazy path I’ve chosen!! I am going to make it! I know I will! After all…
I’ve made it this far!